I'm over it: Moses laments Eels' lost season
Eight matches lost by six points or less is one of the reasons Eels halfback Mitch Mosses openly admits he was "over footy" in 2018.
For a club that has enjoyed only four wins in 19 games, those near-misses are hard to swallow.
"It's pretty hard to pick exactly where we went wrong. We've lost a few games [four] by two points and a few others by not many more," Moses said.
"So we've been in games but not been able to finish them.
"I'm going to take a lot of lessons out of this year and hopefully it improves my football," he said.
"I've been through a fair bit of it at the Tigers. This year was a bit different as we had the team to perform and we didn't do that.
"What I've learned out of it is hopefully that all this helps me towards the end of my career. I've got all this bad stuff at the moment, early on in my career, hopefully I have a good end."
Moses has just played his 100th NRL game at age 23. He will have a long and successful career with his natural talents.
But he has been reaching out regularly to his life coach, Joe Wehbe, who also helps other footballers at a few NRL clubs deal with the highs and lows of elite professional sport.
Moses can tell you about the lows.
"I've been in first grade four years and had five different coaches [four at Tigers]," he said.
"We're coming last on the table so I can't say I've been playing good footy really. I was very excited for this year and thought big things would come."
So when they didn't Moses and Wehbe has been catching up.
"The last couple of weeks I've done a lot of stuff with him. I feel like I am getting back to the kind of form I had last year. He's been a big impact on me – with football and life. I'm lucky to have a person like him. He's helped me massively this year. There's been times when I've been completely over footy," Moses said.
"But he's helped me there; helped me stay at it. Hopefully, it gets better from here.
"It's because the effort we put in every week. If you came to our training you wouldn't think we were coming last.
"We train the house down every day, every week. We do put in for all the games but there's been a couple of key moments in games where we go missing for five or 10 minutes – and that's the game – and that's what is so frustrating."
One legacy from the poor 2018 Telstra Premiership season is that it has galvanised the Eels for a ripper 2019.
"A hundred per cent. That's the big thing. We kind of know what went wrong this year but it's too late to fix it know. We'll fix it ahead of next year."
Another side effect from the year is that Moses has lost his love for tuning in for other games.
"I love watching footy and I haven't watched much this year at all purely for the fact that it's taken a lot out of me," he said
"I tried to watch every single game but this year has taken a fair bit out of me.
"But I will be watching the semis."